As a way to cope with my father dying when I was a small child, I told myself that I had a God-Given destiny to save the planet and everything on it.
I told myself that I was a superhero destine to save the world every time I felt weak as a way to feel strong, and as an adult, I believed it. It wasn’t I had to deal with PTSD at the age of 40, that I realized my God-Given destiny, could really be a PTSD coping mechanism from not getting therapy after the death of my father, as a child.
I know now I am not a superhero with a God-Given destiny to save the world and everything in it, but if I had some kind of famous face, I would try to make the world a better place, in all the ways I listed in my book.
Here were some of my old ideas I thought of on how I could have gotten a famous face…
But that was then and this is now…. In my book I fell in love with this idea of becoming the 1st female US President, I get the thought of a no one saying they want to be US President sounds crazy, but my calculated probability of becoming the 1st female US President is 1 to 96.9 million. The odds of someone winning Euro Jackpot is 1 to 140 million. I know my chances are low, but they are higher than Euro Jackpot, so am I really so crazy if I want to try to save the world if my odds of doing so are much higher than winning the lottery?
My biggest fear is the „What If“, the question what if I did this or that, what could have happened if I just tried? I am afraid of the question what if I am wrong about my God-Given destiny being a PTSD coping mechanism? I know that if I am wrong, my soul will hate me and probably punish me once I die for just failing to try. So why shouldn’t I try to make the world a safer, happier, kinder, place full of resources for my Grandchildren to grow up in, if I believe my chances of doing so are higher than my chances of winning the lottery? I would be stupid to only play the lottery, if my chances of something greater were higher.
I know I can do it; I just need some kind of crazy News story. I know that with one super crazy story I know I can turn my theory that I can save the world, into a real-life reality.
… and this is the one I thought of…
Do I have the Face that could save the Human Race by influencing the planet to be a better place?
I know I sound crazy, but do you believe in the power of manifestation? If you do, let me ask you, what happens in the power of manifestation if you believe you are something for over 30 years of your life? IDK, but damn to I want to find out… only time will tell.
I don’t know what is real, if manifestation really exists, but if it does, I know that it doesn’t matter if I am right or wrong about having some kind of God-Given destiny or a PTSD coping mechanism from my childhood, because under the theory of manifestation either truth will manifest to be, the same truth for me.
